I did it. I threw most of the cereal up. I hate that. I hate when I do that. Bulimia is disgusting. I hate it I hate it I hate it. And do you want to know what's worse? I hate it because I think that bulimics are girls that have eating disorders that aren't strong enough to be anorexics. Isn't that so sick? I should think its disgusting because its so terrible for you. What the hell is wrong with me? And I'm sitting here wishing no one was in the bathroom so I could go throw up some more. I am so disgusting to myself right now. I really just want to loose weight. I hate this I hate this I hate this. I really really really want to do it the right way too so I can't have this binging and purging business.